Emotionally Emotionless, deliberately chaotic

Emotions are the instinctive filled with joys or sorrows. Some are so good at showing while others are not and sometimes people judge those who are not good at showing their feelings.

Emotions are the instinctive filled with joys or sorrows. Some are so good at showing while others are not and sometimes people judge those who are not good at showing their feelings.

People even think that the ones who can’t show their feelings, don’t have the feelings. I genuinely sometimes wonder, how can a person even think this.

No individual on the earth is without emotions. The smiles, laughter, pain and fear; all are part of human’s definition.

The difference only lies that some hide their pain and wear a blanket on it. Hiding pain doesn’t mean that a person is lacking emotions.

It however says that the person is strong enough to hide what is making his or her personality weak and believe so am I.

I am truly in survival mode, I don’t know how to live. But surviving….

I sometimes don’t feel like talking to others, I don’t like sharing my feelings with others and that does not mean that I am abnormal.

Instead, I am perfectly fine. 

So much going on in my head, battling with my own thoughts, struggling for a better life, finding love, peace. Don’t know if I am happy or sad.

I am confused with my own thoughts, how can I even tell anyone when I don’t know what I am feeling within.

So much I am dealing with and people make assumptions that I don’t have emotions. Even more, they make fun and roast for this which is more hurtful.

I had a colleague who used to make fun of me for not being a part of their talks, discussions; overall for not mixing up with all of them. 

The jokes used to trouble me a lot but she didn’t understand that not everyone’s the same. Not everyone has the same problems. On this, I used to behave like a frayed nerve. Such a condition bothered me for so long. 

Although, I was not in that mood to waste my energy on such silly things.

I believe, if someone is not able to show emotions, that person has gone through hell. And has dealt with so many things from losing loved ones to losing oneself that didn’t even find the need to show the world how one feels.

It is something that people who fail to show their emotions, actually have the deepest of them. Such people are actually the most sensitive ones.

Having a blanket on the pain does not only mean hiding the pain. It is more serious like being connected to suicide. 

And may be part of PTSD ( Post – traumatic stress disorder ) as well.

Such people need nothing from others but a gentle and kind behavior. One just needs to show little of the care to them, and the opposite person will all be all yours.